KATastrophe

How correct do you think this is…?

Extraversion

You appear to be not particularly extraverted, nor particularly introverted. You appear to have a balance between your energy and activity levels, and in the amount of social interaction you have with others.

Agreeableness

You have scored quite low in agreeableness, suggesting you are suspicious and antagonistic towards others. Disagreeable individuals place self-interest above getting along with others. They are generally unconcerned with others’ well-being, and are less likely to extend themselves for other people. Sometimes their skepticism about others’ motives causes them to be suspicious, unfriendly, and uncooperative.

Conscientiousness

You have scored quite high in conscientiousness, suggesting you greatly value self-discipline, acting dutifully, and aiming for achievement. You likely have a strong preference for planned rather than spontaneous behavior. You seek to avoid trouble and achieve high levels of success through purposeful planning and persistence. You are also positively regarded by others as intelligent and reliable. Sometimes, however, others may see you as a compulsive perfectionist or a workaholic.

Emotional Stability

You have scored quite high in emotional stability, suggesting that you are rarely easily upset and are far less emotionally reactive to stressful or painful situations or people than most others. People who score high on this trait tend to be calm, emotionally stable, and free from persistent negative feelings. You can handle most stress and emotional situations appropriately on a day-to-day basis and would be considered to be “well adjusted” by most of your friends.

Openness to Experiences

You appear to be neutral in your openness to new experiences. You may welcome them sometimes, but at other times you prefer your existing, traditional interests.

Straight to the point-> someone drew a mustache on my face. Well, on a picture of my face. And frankly, I had suspicion that such treacherous acts were to occur that I almost did that to myself… But I guess they beat me to it.

Anyways, to further explain, Ross posts several employee pictures on their door/wall in the lounge. I FINALLY allowed a photograph of me to be taken, which proceeded to be posted on the door. I just had a nagging feeling that, especially since there was FINALLY  picture of me after working there almost a year, that someone would want to do that! And low and behold, I was correct! [As I always eerily seem to be.. ;P] Anyways, my prime suspect is Rod [gahhh so childish he is so I’m pretty sure it’s him!] and my second suspect is Robert. Well, I mean, there SHOULDN’T be anyone else… Robert is my second choice for the sole reason that he seemed to want to reinitiate our friendship recently. Then again, it took me a while to notice that there was a mustache drawn on my face; I only noticed after my manager asked me who did it. Andddd I didn’t even know it happened. [As a side note- my manager didn’t even take it down and replace it with a new picture. Nopeee she just left my photo with a mustache. Thanks a LOT.] So yea, pretty sure it was Rod. Discussed the issue with another coworker [MR] and he said that one of his past photographs was demolished with a hole through his face. His suspicion also drew to Rod, because seriously, for a 42-year-old, he is STILL the most childish employee there! We’ve been getting a lot of burglary- betting that it’s him…. Anyways, MR hates Rod to, which seems to be quite mutual so I would guess the same. Then again, no offense to MR, but quite a few other coworkers do not have such high respect for him either.. But whatever. I swear..Ross and its dramas…..

p.s. I just realized that the title makes this blog sound like it was gonna be so happy.. Gah, too lazy to make up another one.

1. So, since this is fresh in my mind, it has been brought to my attention that my hugs do not ‘adequately’ suffice the standards of my male counterparts. HOW DARE THEY??!?!?!? Do they even KNOW how much it takes out of me to hug people??? NO. Because they do not know that I am still a noobie [only started since New Year’s basically] and it goes against EVERY nature in my body to do such a senseless [on my part, very sense’ful’ for the guys I’m sure] act!!! O sureeee it may sound like I’m exaggerating, but this is what goes through my head. And to have CRITICISM at my great improvement is just INSULTING!! It makes me regret making any such advancement only for the benefit of society in conforming to social norms!! GRRRR. So underappreciated, I swear….

2. Ok, so burst of anger a bit out. Now to ponder the upcoming requirement of having a big bro in my frat.. WEIRD… VERY WEIRD… Not only is my instinctual association with the term ‘bro’ tainted by my biological [supposedly] siblings, but it’s weird imagining being somewhat dependent… Since they’re supposed to pay for you and everything; can’t imagine.. Lol THIS is why I have damn issues with finding a boyfriend! But I was just starting to get more of my independence back by holding my textbooks as oppposed to pawning it off to the weaker [male] gender in show of my skilled superiority. ;P Lol. I think I’m becoming more feminist parallel to trying to find a boyfriend…. Maybe not so good. Man, last semester, I had a guy friend who would NOT walk through the door if I opened it first! He had to hold it and lemme go through first and gah it was annoying! Sure sure chivalry may be nice, but if you really insist, as least walk FASTER so I wouldn’t naturally open the door when I get there first!! What am I gonna do, stand there and wait for you to open it?? I doubt even the gentlemen would want THAT. HAVE WE WOMEN NOT PROGRESSED IN THE PAST CENTURY??? Sigh.. Anyways, not only do I have an issue about beginning a ‘real’ brotherly relationship and being dependent, but I don’t want to have to pick somebody.. Very uncomfortable… Unless I won’t even BE picked by anybody..by far worse! Gah, I don’t know.

More more more to say, but not even time in the day. Will be back to write more later, but if you read this, don’t be a hater. [Hehe, rhymed if you didn’t notice. ;P]

A-PHI-O [in other words Alpha Phi Omega] is the name of the fraternity, or “college key club” they like to call it since there’s no hazing and it’s a volunteer-focused frat, that I am joining. Well, ASSUMINGGGG I get in.

Friday Bonfire: People were pretty chill; I was pretty much a loser. MAN have I not socialized in forever! Lol this guy wanted to socialize more, but he felt bad for leaving me alone, so he had to push me on to another group. I followed people. I think I was a creeper for a bit. In the end, got into pretty nice conversations with some groups and guys and may I say- I don’t know if I’m a slut [well, probably more correctly a flirt since I don’t actually DO anything] or what because I cannot seem to make girl friends anymore! [Besides girlfriends. ;P Jk. Anyways…] Maybe it’s because I’ve always felt like I’ve had a solid girl group, so why would I need to make other girl friends? I mean, my main issue before was DEFINITELY needing to make guy friends since all I could do was insult them before. I thinkkkk I’m better now… XD Lol. Well, I do it for a better reason now anyways. Instead of just crushing guys’ egos like before. So, reasons that convinced me to join:

1. POKERRRR. I have not played in so long and apparently they play like every week. Definitely MY type of group. :D I told them I gambled a lot and that I WAS good, but this one guy just did not believe him. Which will make it all the more fun to show him up anyways, so I don’t mind. :]

2. FOODDDDD. They eat a lot! Need I say more?

3. AZZZZZNZNZNZNZNSSSSS. I am racist. Is it not true for us azns to connect to azns? Yea. We’re all taught to be racist to so it’s inbreeded [sp?] in me, can’t help it. But, in my defense, I’ve made a few non-azn friends in there too. But I have to say they’re pretty wazn if they joined hehe..

4. CHRYSSSSSSSS. Best badminton buddy be in it too! One friend already in, connection and help through the pledge process. OOO.OO….Linh [yes that Linh..] is in it too though.. Thank god no one tried to introduce us two yet; I can already see the conversation now:

Person introducing us: O! Have you met Linh?

Me and Linh [looking at each other or not at each other awkwardly…]: Uhh..yea..we know each other..

Person introducing us: O, how do you guys know each other??

Me: Umm..from high school.. [then expression of raised eyebrows and thin lips..]

Linh: [Probably acting like we’re all good, but hopefully NOT mentioning that we were good friends at a time!]

Ok, too depressing of a conversation to go on any further; let’s just say = not good. But we already had one short encounter. When Chrys and I noticed a girl from Scripps pledging, we were like o, we know her, and Chrys, who was sitting next to Linh, prompted her to question whether she knew her too, so they both turned to ME to ask if IIII would know if LINH knew her. I was like, really??? REALLY? You’re asking me who you know? Gah, just don’t wanna act fake or two-faced and pretend we’re all good. I mean I don’t hate her, just still don’t care for her, and not planning to be friends again. Ever. :] But I was just like, I don’t know.. So I think I did pretty good, I mean, that is a pretty nice response compared to all the things I COULD have said.. Anyways-

5. Karaokeeee. Yeaaaaa they karaoke too I hear. Definitely cool. Haven’t been to a karaoke bar in a long time, so should be fun!

6. Sudokuuuu! YES. Some of them play sudoku. This one guy challenged me. MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA. Chrys warned him. We’ll see what happens next. XD

p.s. I saw this guy Quy who I SWEAR I see EVERYWHERE in San Diego, in the randomest places at the randomest times! Weird. Anyways, moving on…

Info Night: So. This one guy challenged me in WWF [Words With Friends] after hearing from Chrys that I was good. I always accept a challenge of course, so we played and a few rounds in I was beating him by at least 50 points. [I’m not trying to brag but hehe what can I say…? ;P Jk.] He started saying ooo I’m gonna quit, you already won, I’m gonna quit… But I was like really??? C’mon, it’s only a few rounds in, plenty of time to catch up, [didn’t go into the whole sore loser bit since we only just met] so I coddled him [NOT cuddled him; coddled as in babied him] and kinda went easy ‘til we eventually tied and he was all happy like o good game. I was like wow, are you serious? Well, I thought he forfeited though since it said I beat him by 0 points, so on info night he was waving to me, but I yelled at him “QUITTER!” and pointed a finger and everything. He just gave me this weird look like, huh? What are you talking about? I just ignored him and sat down next to Chrys thinking, don’t act like you don’t know! But he was sitting next to this girl who also seemed really confused like what…why did that new girl just yell at you? But that was an understandable response from her. Later, the newbies had to stand up for an icebreaker- catching a ball and answering a question on it- so I looked around the room and saw that that “quitter” guy moved seats to behind me. But then I looked back to the front and was like wait…he’s sitting there too…and I looked behind me and saw him there too…

Me to Chrys: Chrys….does that guy have a twin…?

Chrys: Yea….didn’t you know that..?

Me: Noo… Uh…I think I just yelled at his twin…

Chrys: MWAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHA. [Yea, thanks a lot Chrys. That definitely helped my embarassment.]

And let’s just say that MWAHAHAHA continued for quite a bit. FINALLY-

Chrys: You didn’t know he had a twin?? They look nothing alike! [Yea, mhm, that’s why I couldn’t tell them apart.]

But yes, I didn’t know. Apparently one has “longer hair” than the other and two moles instead of one. How could I NOT have noticed that?? After meeting him for like 10 MIN?? I swear, like a movie. Lol. I heard him telling his friends, “Yea, that girl just yelled at me…” etc. Me: “Sorry! I didn’t know!” etc. I mean, who would’ve thought that would actually happen? Sorry for not assuming that someone could possibly have a twin! Anyways, it was just really weird. I couldn’t believe the chances of that.. But that’s it for now..to be continued……….

I WANT THIS GUITAR. I’m not kidding.

1. Hm. Pretty obvious. I don’t think I have to say it anymore. But I mean it this time. Everybody knows I’m workin’ on it already, I mean, I’m giving hugs out now, right? That seems like a pretty big step up from where I was at. :P So here’s to it! 2011 will be the last year I’m alone! I mean, if we’re all gonna die in 2012…might as well. :D

2. Feel comfortable. [Yes yes..euphemism for losing weight..] I know I say it a lot…but I really think I’m done with feeling self-conscious for the rest of my life. I mean, jeez, it’s been what? 7 1/2 years now?? Damn..so my goal is ‘til the end of January to get ‘er done. I WILL DO IT.

And that is it. I’m done with all the little school resolutions like ‘work harder’ etc etc.. Yea yea.. That’s not gonna change. What IS gonna change are those two. The two things I really need to focus all my energy into lol. I’ll do it! You’ll seeeeee… XD

Bolded= My Lyrics

Unbolded= Katy Perry’s Lyrics

[Verse 1]

No, I’m not pretty without any makeup on

You think I’m pretty without any makeup on

No, I’m not funny cause I tell the punchline wrong

You think I’m funny when I tell the punchline wrong

So no one gets me, and my dreams come crashing down, down

I know you get me so I let my walls come down, down

[Verse 2]

Forced to be lonely, I was alright but life

Before you met me, I was alright but things

Gets kinda heavy, as time passes by

Were kinda heavy, you brought me to life

Cause every February, I need a valentine, valentine

Now every February, you’ll be my valentine, valentine

[Pre-Chorus]

Just another lonely night

Let’s go all the way tonight

With regrets, no love

No regrets, just love

Will it last until I die

We can dance until we die

Me and I, just alone forever

You and I will be young forever

[Chorus]

Wish I could feel like I’m living a teenage dream

You make me feel like I’m living a teenage dream

But I can’t find The One, I can’t sleep

The way you turn me on, I can’t sleep

My pain won’t go away, it always comes back

Let’s runaway and don’t ever look back

It always comes back

Don’t ever look back

My heart stops when I think of me

My heart stops when you look at me

All alone, the pain you won’t believe

Just one touch now baby I believe

Is this real, my loneliness, it always comes back

This is real so take a chance and don’t ever look back

It always comes back

Don’t ever look back

[Verse 3]

I drove to Cali, and got drunk on the beach

We drove to Cali, and got drunk on the beach

Got a motel and cried in between the sheets

Got a motel and built a fort out of sheets

I still can’t find you, my missing puzzle piece

I finally found you, my missing puzzle piece

Incomplete

I’m complete

[PRE-CHORUS]

[CHORUS]

[Bridge]

An empty bed I am facing

I’ma get your heart racing

In my buttoned jeans

In my skin tight jeans

I can only dream tonight

Be your teenage dream tonight

Wish someone’d put their hands on me

Let you put your hands on me

Unbutton my jeans

In my skin tight jean

Be my teenage dream tonight

Be your teenage dream tonight

(Tonight, tonight, tonight…)

(Yoooooouuuuu make me)

[CHORUS]

[BRIDGE]

Tonight, tonight, tonight, tonight…